i just finished a play tittled "The History Boys".
this play is about a group of boys being prepared for entrance exams for high education colleges. it is also about two teachers, an older one with exentic ways and a love of literature, the other a young guy who has a way to "beat" the mold of exam and entrance essays. he does this through an odd looking glass of histroy, and making radical claims about history and then rationalizing them. i read this play once now, ill have to read it more times, but my intial read told me this. i do not undertand the language. it is written in english, save the scene in french, but the hieghted speak and vocabulary of the play is lost oin me. i was told that this play is very funny and inteligently witty and great. i did not find it. i spent more time counting the words i didnt know than i tried finding the humor.
this play combined with the results i am reciveing in my first science based class in three semesters lead me to believe i have lost a portion of my intelligence. i have fallen from what i call smart. and what others call smart.
now people say that i am smart in many other respects, just not science. but thats where i use to be smart. i reacived a honerable mention in highschool for my scores in the science portion of the ACT. and now i am recieving low grades, and not understanding higher thought.
i can give you Shakespeare and Stanislavski
but i cannot name the three main parts of a shoulder socket, the hormoes that are secreted form the pitutary gland, or the meaning of the word gerund.
this troubles me. this troubles me greatly.
where do i go from here? how do i move forward? mean honestly im going to grit my teeth and do it, but i feel like this is just a farce im trying to put on for the college. and the professor already know the script and have seen it done better.
so now, all i can do is study, and try my best, knowing that my best might not be enough.
but my best is enough in my feild of main study, i can act and dance and that is what i need, i just have to pass these classes and move on, and passing im my mind and the mind of those that i look up to is enoguh? isn't it. can i finaly say to the greater good, this is enough? i mean come on, what casting director is going to search my college transcript and not cast me in a part because i got a D or a C in Anatpomy and Phsyology or i got a C in play readin and analysis.
none. acting is based on the moment in front of you, the moment happening now on th estage in the scene or in the audition. not the past score on the one cross study class you took in college for you minor.
so with out spell check or reserve i post this getting of my mind for now.
Hi my name is Matt Schaeflein
i have an inteligence score of 9
and a charisma score of 14
